Pillow Thoughts is a collection of poetry and prose about heartbreak, love and raw emotions. It is divided into sections to read when you feel you need them most. Make a cup of tea and let yourself feel. Pillow Thoughts by Courtney Peppernell – eBook Details I have never known what this sadness feels like when you cannot feel the sun or the air around you And time they say will heal you but even my own mother doesn’t know what to do. You said you wouldn’t hurt me You promised to keep me safe You knew what the others had done and I fell for the sincerity on your face. Maybe I deserved this for trusting someone who could manipulate so easily Maybe I deserved this for not listening when mother knows best. But all I was trying to do was show you that even a monster can be loved. Of all the tragedies on this earth, there is none more tragic than a person who cannot see their worth. One of the best parts of this collection—as well as Peppernell’s other works—is that it is written in a truly unique voice. It stands out among a sea of modern poetry dealing with similar topics and makes for a very captivating and refreshing read. The heartfelt and genuine nature of these poems is easily recognizable. They are seemingly simple but truthfully so profound and intricate. Peppernell’s words consistently empower the reader and contain a level of sincerity that turns this work into a brilliant gem of a book.

We are standing at the edge of the world and yet we still do not meet. You are soaked in daylight and I am covered in the night. My heart yearns for our eclipse.You can feel all the raw emotion in every word Peppernell writes and the pure passion she puts into creating her poems. This collection is split into five parts, each one dealing with a particular theme. And as a whole, each section ties seamlessly into the next, coming together in a perfect blend that warms the heart and soul. Her poems are a series of meticulously crafted vignettes that comfort, heal, and encourage readers. With vivid imagery, Peppernell takes us on a journey that allows us to better understand, accept, and care for ourselves. Ehm excuse me? She is not an object that you can have. She is a person and she is her own person. I hate the idea that in a relationship you BELONG to someone. And I think it’s dangerous to tell young readers that you should. I think I know what the author wanted to say but it’s difficulty written. Full disclosure: I was supposed to participate in a promotional blog tour for this book, which is why I received a copy of it. However, as evidenced by my star rating, I most certainly did not enjoy reading it, and as such, I decided to forfeit my spot in the tour. Still, many thanks to the blog tour organizer for providing a review copy. You were born in New Jersey but now live in London, do you think this change impacted your sound in anyway, and do you think growing up in these areas influenced it? I just wanted you to know That I’ll never care How far you push me away Because when I told you That I would stay I meant it. You’re a little lost And a little damaged But you’re not hopeless. I know who you are I love who you are And that’s why I’ll stay So you learn to love Yourself too.

Until you’re older and you’ve discovered even bones can ache and not everyone will give you a second chance. So, you’ll stare into an empty bottle and wish life were as simple as a high school dance. There are days where triggers are around every corner, lurking in shadows where darkness spills heavy breaths and tight chests. Anxiety is a devastating thing. No matter how many times you are told to “breathe” it feels as though the air has all but thinned, and despite every logical reason to remain calm, you feel like a ship without its sails in the middle of a raging storm. I keep wondering how sad do I have to be for someone to stop insisting everything is going to be fine? It’s midnight and I thought about Boarding a plane and meeting you in the city I thought about stitching you into my skin So you’d be with me as I slept I wish you were here Or I were there Because my heart caves in when I look at you And it feels like your hands twist around My rib cage And take the air from my lungs My head starts pounding And I just want to kiss you It’s midnight And I just want youI am sorry we are in different states and towns I am sorry for that day I didn’t reply so you drove sixteen hours of dark highway We are breaking the whole world’s heart, all these lonely nights without each other Or maybe the world is slowly breaking us I’m sorry for all the days we’ve spent separately I’m sorry for all the time we cannot make up I’m sorry for being caught up in all your lonely I just wanted a place to stay This sadness that they say can be beautiful, what sadness is this? Because my sadness rips me apart from the inside, and there isn’t a thing beautiful about it. I hope my music will get people talking about the nature of their relationships with others and with themselves and I hope it will encourage others to question how they define their reality. At the very least, I hope it can provide a few minutes of escapism. Chicago I’m in Chicago and you’re at home, how can we be so in love and yet so alone? It’s been so hard, how many more days must we be apart? All the nerves in my heart, wondering if things have changed, All the time apart, wondering if we’ll still be the same. I’m in Chicago and you’re at home, and I’m watching life pass. I miss you when I am alone.